Motivation found...a trip alone! Don't be jelly now.

Before having my kids, when I was in my twenties, I took care of myself so well. I worked out 3-4 days per week and ate healthily. I was always a foodie, so I indulged on the weekends- but would always exercise to even it out! When I became pregnant with Chloe when I was 30, I continued to work out well into my second trimester until I began having some problems that put a hold on exercising until after she was born. I nursed both kids so the pregnancy weight came right off- but it also became a crutch of sorts. I allowed myself to eat more. I ate things I wouldn't have eaten before because I knew I wouldn't gain the weight...then I stopped nursing. I have been holding on to 10 extra pounds ever since. I did get back into exercising- somewhat. I get back, and am doing great when suddenly one of the kids get sick or was up all night and it keeps me away. I am not the fitness freak I once was- and I'm okay with that- to some extent. I don't think I'm at the point of no return- but, I have my work cut out for me. It's hard getting back- to be totally devoted to it. With me- there ain't no half steppin- I'm either in, or I'm out. Right now, I'm so in.

My trip to Puerto Rico in 29 days is my main source of motivation. I gave up my pride- twice in the delivery room. I refuse to give it up in a bikini next month!

I have 29 days from today. I started my new regimen as of Monday. Got back to the gym- eating right. I'm upset at myself that it took so long to get motivated to start taking care of myself- when there should have never been a time when I didn't. 

This is a new beginning for me- getting back to me. It's been a while since I did stuff for myself. I'm taking my life back starting with getting back in shape and congratulating my own efforts with a trip to Puerto Rico with one of my closest friends!

I know my body will never look the way it did before having my kids...and I'm okay with that too. Definitely worth the exchange. This trip is giving me the jump start to something I should have been doing all along...getting healthy- first and foremost, not wearing a moo-moo on vacation, the second!